Am I that Bad?

I just realized how much i have changed. I have a tendency to overreact and I've been expressing myself through my actions. Sometimes maybe too much. I also like to kid around every now and then. But lately i have been overdoing it. My jokes eventually hurt my friends' feelings. I feel so bad and guilty. Even though I was just kidding around, I was being insensitive. I didn't know u guys would take it as an offense. I am so sorry. I know that u guys probably have forgotten all about this already, but this feeling of guilt is still there and it is eating me alive-.- So just hear me out, okay?

I am sorry Garis, for all the times I teased and made fun of you. I am also sorry Iqi because my jokes aren't as funny as it is to you than it is to me. I am sorry Alvi if I have been such an annoying chairmate. I am sorry PPG if I have been so irritating. I am also so so so, sincerely, sorry for everybody else whom I may have hurt but didn't notice it myself.

I have been introspecting myself and I just realized that I need to change. I know that some people might find this post to be "lebay" or that I should just "nyelow", but hey, i'm the type of person who can't stand hurting people's feelings regardless how little it offends them. And anyway, it's such a HUGE RELIEF to be able to post this :D :D :D

So Much To Do, So Little Time

"Hey, when are we gonna start making the script?"

There are a lot of things I wanna do before 12th grade. The thing is, I'll be very busy by then taking care of university applications, preparing for the national exam, etc. Heck, i haven't even decided what major to take. So I still have a LOT to do and a WHOLE LOT to think about. I must optimize these last 4 months with activities that i have always wanted to do. I'm making myself a checklist to make sure i can get it all done before 12th grade (i hope).

1. Learn to drive

2. Plan an awesome sweet 17

3. Have the awesome sweet 17

4. Join a course or some sort of training in the entertainment industry (maybe modeling, maybe acting, maybe personality development, maybe presenting or newscasting. it's something i've always had in mind. it's a great experience for young ladies such as myself :p )

Okay, that looks like it's not much to do, but it is if you barely have any free time. I have courses practically every single day now (except Sunday). And i usually have things to do on weekends and holidays such as family gatherings, family bonding time, club activities, school activities, practices, and all that jazz. I've been skipping violin lesson for 4 consecutive lessons now-.- That's because i was always busy on Saturdays. Anyway, learning to drive doesn't take one day. It could take weeks! So is the training in the entertainment industry. From what I heard, usually takes at least 5 days.

I only have a few weeks left to spare. One week is from the week off we get from 12th graders taking their national examinations, and then 2 or 3 weeks (i forgot how long precisely) from the end of the school year holiday. Not to mention I am fully booked with activities on that week when 12th graders take their national exams. So how oh how do i squeeze in all those things i wanna do? Any ideas guys?