Embrace The Awesome

Go go go TNT!!

Have you ever had one of those days when you feel so insecure about yourself? Like you wished you were prettier? or smarter? or thinner? or nicer? or maybe even you wished you were someone else? Maybe that gorgeous and perfect friend of yours? Well, i've been having one of those days more frequent recently. I'm not sure why. But whenever these things start to pop into my head, I keep reminding myself what a wise person once told me: Nobody is perfect. God is fair. For example, if A is a skilled tennis player and B is a talented singer, no one can judge who is better. They are both wonderful in their own areas. Or maybe when you THINK a person is better than you are in everything, well think AGAIN. There's bound to be something you are better at than he/she is; whether it's your attitude, your talents, your abilities, or anything else. Everyone has their own strength and weaknesses. Now it's just up to us...to be grateful with what we already have and what God has blessed us with, or be an unappreciative brat? you decide! We are all awesome in our own ways!! lol. Ladies, let's embrace the AWESOME! :D :D :D

Keeping Up

"Make a Wish"

Soooo it's been such a long time since my last post. Nothing new really. I'm lying. Lots of things have happened. There was my holiday trip to Europe, my birthday, mon copain, new class, Ramadhan, friend trouble, death of family, lots of stuff. There are actually too many things to write. Let me put it briefly; it has been an emotional roller-coaster ride. There are times when I feel completely ecstatic as if life couldn't get any better and other times I feel like I want to lock myself up all alone in my room. So I go up, then down...and up and down and up and down. Then a loop and when the ride finally ended, I feel like I wanna puke.

I've been thinking a lot lately. Deep thoughts, about the past, present, and future. All the 'what if', 'I should've', 'I could've', and 'if only'. When I'm with a friend or anybody else, my mind is occupied so these thoughts disappear. But then when I'm alone, those thoughts come back to me. It gets exhausting :(

Am I that Bad?

I just realized how much i have changed. I have a tendency to overreact and I've been expressing myself through my actions. Sometimes maybe too much. I also like to kid around every now and then. But lately i have been overdoing it. My jokes eventually hurt my friends' feelings. I feel so bad and guilty. Even though I was just kidding around, I was being insensitive. I didn't know u guys would take it as an offense. I am so sorry. I know that u guys probably have forgotten all about this already, but this feeling of guilt is still there and it is eating me alive-.- So just hear me out, okay?

I am sorry Garis, for all the times I teased and made fun of you. I am also sorry Iqi because my jokes aren't as funny as it is to you than it is to me. I am sorry Alvi if I have been such an annoying chairmate. I am sorry PPG if I have been so irritating. I am also so so so, sincerely, sorry for everybody else whom I may have hurt but didn't notice it myself.

I have been introspecting myself and I just realized that I need to change. I know that some people might find this post to be "lebay" or that I should just "nyelow", but hey, i'm the type of person who can't stand hurting people's feelings regardless how little it offends them. And anyway, it's such a HUGE RELIEF to be able to post this :D :D :D

So Much To Do, So Little Time

"Hey, when are we gonna start making the script?"

There are a lot of things I wanna do before 12th grade. The thing is, I'll be very busy by then taking care of university applications, preparing for the national exam, etc. Heck, i haven't even decided what major to take. So I still have a LOT to do and a WHOLE LOT to think about. I must optimize these last 4 months with activities that i have always wanted to do. I'm making myself a checklist to make sure i can get it all done before 12th grade (i hope).

1. Learn to drive

2. Plan an awesome sweet 17

3. Have the awesome sweet 17

4. Join a course or some sort of training in the entertainment industry (maybe modeling, maybe acting, maybe personality development, maybe presenting or newscasting. it's something i've always had in mind. it's a great experience for young ladies such as myself :p )

Okay, that looks like it's not much to do, but it is if you barely have any free time. I have courses practically every single day now (except Sunday). And i usually have things to do on weekends and holidays such as family gatherings, family bonding time, club activities, school activities, practices, and all that jazz. I've been skipping violin lesson for 4 consecutive lessons now-.- That's because i was always busy on Saturdays. Anyway, learning to drive doesn't take one day. It could take weeks! So is the training in the entertainment industry. From what I heard, usually takes at least 5 days.

I only have a few weeks left to spare. One week is from the week off we get from 12th graders taking their national examinations, and then 2 or 3 weeks (i forgot how long precisely) from the end of the school year holiday. Not to mention I am fully booked with activities on that week when 12th graders take their national exams. So how oh how do i squeeze in all those things i wanna do? Any ideas guys?

Dubai: Day three

GOODBYE DUBAI!

Last day in Dubai. We only had 3 days there bc my father had a meeting in the next day-.- But no worries, three days were DEFINITELY enough! On that day, all we did was pack up our stuff and hung out a little in the City Centre Mall. I shopped some stuff and then we had lunch at Chili's. Me and ninda thought that there would be chili in Chili's (bc of the name), but in fact, there wasn't. Actually there was, but not as a bowl of chili, but as a topping or side dish. We ordered chili cheese french fries and buffalo wings for appetizer. It was dayyumm good. Hadn't had chili cheese fries since 5th grade at Chuck E. Cheese. Then for main course I had pasta which tasted so delicious. And I got to mooch off daddy's shrimps. Lemme tell ya, it was the best shrimp I have ever tasted! Lemony, crispy, spicy, full of flavors. Yummo!! Chili's was so friggin awesome. If only there was Chili's in Indonesia.

Then we left in the afternoon. The weather throughout our days were cool (since it was wintertime). It was a wonderful experience :) Our days in Dubai were incredible :D

Dubai: Day two

Day two:

The second day was just as fun as the first day :) We started the day with some breakfast in the hotel. There were a LOT of choices; breads, bacons (halal one i might add, veal bacon :D), baked beans, hash brown, curry, paratha, snowfish, yoghurt, fruits, and many many more! It was deeeelish! I had bacon, baked beans, hash brown, and beef and mushroom pie (all in appropriate proportions of course, fitting one plate). Love love the breakfast at the hotel yumm.

The first activity on our agenda was taking a picture in front of Burj Khalifa (which is the tallest building on earth, 828 meters and more than 160 levels). It was great! We were about to go up the top of Burj Khalifa but the tickets were all sold out for that day and the next day :-/ I was really upset but what else can we do, ya know? So we decided to hang out at the Dubai Mall again. I bought a book, War and Peace by Leo Tolstoy. Still haven't pass the third page hahaha :p Then, we had lunch at Burj Al Arab. It was magnificent. Burj Al Arab is the 7-star hotel. The inside was plated with real gold. Such a luxurious hotel. There were also beautiful fountains inside. It was wonderful :D Oh and because it was christmas the time we had lunch at the restaurant (which I forgot the name-.-), we were given small presents. I got a small body lotion and perfume branded Hermès. Niiiiceeeeee...

Next, we went to the world's biggest indoor ski. We went skiing there :D It was so big. And SCARY. I keep falling and falling. The hill was bumpy and so high up -.- I fell for a lot of times. In the middle of the hill, me and my sister fell together and it was so hard to stand up while wearing the ski equipments. So there was this staff that helped us up. He was an Arabic. Maybe in his young 20's. He asked us where we were from and we told him we were from Indonesia. He also actually asked if we were TWINS. Did my sister and I look that much alike? I don't think so-.- We told him no, and then continued skiing down the hill. I wanted to stop skiig at that time but my siblings forced me to go again. And so I did. We went up using a chairlift. And we met that guy again. This time we went down the hill one by one. I was the last one. And before I was about to start skiing. The guy came toward me and suddenly said "Apa kabar?" with Arabic accents of course, then I laughed a little hearing him trying to speak Indonesian and said "Baik". He then said "What's your name?" and I hesitate for a while and answered "Aulia". I quickly ski before he could comment or say anything else, but from a distant I could hear a faint "What?" like he didn't catch my name. The worst part was when I reached the bottom of the hill, I was going so fast that I couldn't stop myself. And I CRASHED into a stranger. He was a foreigner, maybe western, maybe european, but a blondie for sure. It was so embarrassing!!! I fell on my side (Because one of my ski poles got caught on his arm) so hard. He apologized and I apologized too. It was too embarrassing, because you should've seen the way I fell. He didn't fall at all (he was strong I guess-.-). My fall was so weird (i fell on my side, duh) and so hard to describe. You should've seen it yourself. GAH, from then on, I told my siblings I wanted to stop bc the side of my butt hurt a lot :( So the ski trip was fun, scary, and embarrassing at the same time.

The last place we went before we hit the hay at our hotel, was the largest fountain in the world which was located in front of Burj Khalifa. The fountain turns on every half hour from 7 p.m. until 10 p.m. (if i'm not mistaken). We got to see it turn on 3 times. Let me tell you something about the fountain, IT WAS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING I'VE EVER SEEN. And I'm not being dramatic about this. The water was practically, like, dancing to the music (that's why it's called the dancing fountain duh :p). The song was magnificent, and the view was extraordinary. It was too perfect to describe. When I saw it for the first time, I literally stood in silence and in awe watching it and my eyes started to water. It was AMAZING. The fountain was HUGE!!! Which made it more jaw-dropping. It was such a heart-touching moment. If you want to see a video of how it looks like click this, but lemme tell ya, it's not as breath-taking as it is in real life. I would want to go there again with my husband one day cuz the scene was so romantic :p el oh el. Anyway, a perfect perfect PERFECT way to end the day :')