Messed-Up

Whaddup peeps? I’ve got a damn fever and was forced to stay at home. Here’s a list of things I missed because I didn’t go to school today:

1. Sundanese Practical Exam. We were gonna cook!! I was really looking forward to it!! :(
2. Swimming Practical Exam. I didn't go to the first one so I was supposed to go to this one.
3. MUN training. I just got the text that it was held today! Just my luck!

So instead of all those, here I am, lying on the bed, feeling awful, sick, and nauseous. Great, huh? Yesterday was also horrifying. The morning started with a temperamental teacher-.- He got so enraged with the class, he slammed the table hard, kicked the desk, yelled at us, and left the classroom while slamming the door. I was shocked, because I didn’t expect it from him at all. I knew he was in a bad mood to begin with, but he shouldn’t have blown off his steam on us. Though that was nothing compared to Tuesday.

It has been a completely messed-up week really.

Let It Burn

The song that describes my current situation is this one. It’s Burn by Usher. Originally, the song is made for a girl of course. So I changed the gender of the partner, and I also didn’t put down the verses that did not relate to me. Hope you could get the gist.

Boy, understand why

See it's burning me to hold onto this

I know this is something I gotta do

But that don't mean I want to

What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just

I feel like this is coming to an end

And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you

I gotta let it burn

It's gonna burn for me to say this

But it's coming from my heart

It's been a long time coming

But we done been fell apart

Really wanna work this out

But I don't think you're gonna change ya

I do but you don't

Think it's best we go our separate ways

Tell me why I should stay in this relationship

When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby

Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with

I think that you should let it burn

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to

But you know gotta let it go cause the party ain't jumpin' like it used to

Even though this might bruise you

Let it burn

Let it burn

Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you

Hate the thought of him being with someone else

But you know that it's over

You know that it was through

Let it burn

Let it burn

Gotta let it burn

I'm twisted cause one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on

On the other side I wanna break down and cry

I'm twisted cause one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on

On the other side I wanna break down and cry

Embrace The Awesome

Go go go TNT!!

Have you ever had one of those days when you feel so insecure about yourself? Like you wished you were prettier? or smarter? or thinner? or nicer? or maybe even you wished you were someone else? Maybe that gorgeous and perfect friend of yours? Well, i've been having one of those days more frequent recently. I'm not sure why. But whenever these things start to pop into my head, I keep reminding myself what a wise person once told me: Nobody is perfect. God is fair. For example, if A is a skilled tennis player and B is a talented singer, no one can judge who is better. They are both wonderful in their own areas. Or maybe when you THINK a person is better than you are in everything, well think AGAIN. There's bound to be something you are better at than he/she is; whether it's your attitude, your talents, your abilities, or anything else. Everyone has their own strength and weaknesses. Now it's just up to us...to be grateful with what we already have and what God has blessed us with, or be an unappreciative brat? you decide! We are all awesome in our own ways!! lol. Ladies, let's embrace the AWESOME! :D :D :D